Ministry

It should be of no surprise that my mind is often filled with thoughts pertaining to ministry. I'd often find myself asking questions such as, what, if, where, and when, and though I am conscious that the answers to my prayers will come in good time, it doesn't however keep my curious little mind from wondering.

Since my return from abroad, each week has been an interesting process of thinking through, and struggling with understanding not only the joys, but the heartaches associated with ministry. Each step has been a step of faith; and the support, friendships, and prayers from friends have, in itself, been an answered prayer.

I find myself walking on the edge of excitement, and fear. Excitement at what the new day will bring in terms of growth and understanding, and fear, at not quite knowing. By faith, I reconcile the tension created by my emotions, and through it, find peace and assurance.

At TAFT on Monday night, I had the opportunity to reflect on the past two and a half years of my ministry. It was helpful exercise in seeing how my thoughts have evolved over the years, and where my decisions, and experiences have led me.

Over this time, I have had my beliefs challenged, rocked and changed, and I am eternally thankful to all the godly counsel I've received - the perspectives, encouragements, insights, honesty, influences, prayers, and wisdom.

Time will reveal what is yet to come.

Now faith is being sure of what we hope for and certain of what we do not see.

- Hebrews 11:1

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Look into my eyes. I long to return the depths of your gaze.
Hold me with your arms. I long to feel the warmth of your embrace.
Whisper to my heart. I long to hear the gentlenss of your call.
Speak to my soul. I long to respond to the caresses of your love.