My Greatest Desire
Last night was absolutely wonderful. Despite feeling a bit run down.
I spent it sharing dinner at Sky Phonenix at Rhodes with all my uncles, aunts, cousins from my father's side. It was an occasion to celebrate. My cousin's second child's first month. Otherwise known as "mun yue" in chinese.
Traditions, as loosely as we follow them, are a great way to bring everyone together.
I can't explain how much I love my family. The personalities, the stories, and how we're all growing. Whether that be in life experience or simply by numbers - through marriages or new births.
As always the topics of conversation were hilarious as much as they varied immensely.
It always feels amazing when our family are all together. Warm, safe, protected, nurtured.
I know I am greatly blessed by them.
On a personal note, last night affirmed alot of my own 'coming of age' thoughts. If I can put it that way.
As much as I've feared or avoided marriage and a family life of my own, I know deep down inside it is a part of me I cannot deny. No matter how hard I try.
With my family history being brought to light earlier this week, coupled with seeing all my extended family together; one of my greatest desires surfaced upon reflection.
The desire to be a wife to my husband. To love. To give. To create.
As significant a step as it is for me to say it, on the flip side, I am greatly comforted by a God who continues to gently tell me this is who he's created me to be - despite years of what the world have taught or convinced otherwise.
I continue to long for the simple life. Of family. Of worship. Of God.
My grandmother continues to leave her legacy imprinted in my heart. Last night was a living testimony of her life and the love she gave.
I spent it sharing dinner at Sky Phonenix at Rhodes with all my uncles, aunts, cousins from my father's side. It was an occasion to celebrate. My cousin's second child's first month. Otherwise known as "mun yue" in chinese.
Traditions, as loosely as we follow them, are a great way to bring everyone together.
I can't explain how much I love my family. The personalities, the stories, and how we're all growing. Whether that be in life experience or simply by numbers - through marriages or new births.
As always the topics of conversation were hilarious as much as they varied immensely.
It always feels amazing when our family are all together. Warm, safe, protected, nurtured.
I know I am greatly blessed by them.
On a personal note, last night affirmed alot of my own 'coming of age' thoughts. If I can put it that way.
As much as I've feared or avoided marriage and a family life of my own, I know deep down inside it is a part of me I cannot deny. No matter how hard I try.
With my family history being brought to light earlier this week, coupled with seeing all my extended family together; one of my greatest desires surfaced upon reflection.
The desire to be a wife to my husband. To love. To give. To create.
As significant a step as it is for me to say it, on the flip side, I am greatly comforted by a God who continues to gently tell me this is who he's created me to be - despite years of what the world have taught or convinced otherwise.
I continue to long for the simple life. Of family. Of worship. Of God.
My grandmother continues to leave her legacy imprinted in my heart. Last night was a living testimony of her life and the love she gave.
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